The gunman who killed 19 students and two teachers at Robb Elementary School in Uvalde, Texas, was initially said to have gotten into the school via a door left propped open by a teacher. The director of the Texas Department of Public Safety, Col. Steven McCraw, who initially made that claim, later amended the story to explain that the teacher, whom he did not name, had actually closed the door, but didn't realize it remained unlocked. Now, for the first time, Emilia "Amy" Marin is coming forward to tell her story. Marin worked as a speech pathologist and after-school program coordinator at the school, and she is the person to whom McCraw was referring. "It was very easy for him to point the finger at me. A few weeks ago, I told my counselor 'It would have been better if he would have shot me, too.' Because the pain is unbearable," she tells ABC News.
Marin was also the person who called 911 when she heard the shooter's pickup truck crash outside the school. When she realized what was going on, she kicked away the rock that had been propping the door open before the gunman made it to the door, then went to warn teachers of what was happening. (Though the door was unlocked, the glass inlay was not made of ballistic glass, so it could have easily been shot through even if it had been locked.) In addition to the anguish she suffers due to the misplaced blame she initially received, Marin says she struggles with other thoughts as well. "If I had gone out a few seconds later I would've met him outside. He would have shot me. With him shooting me, would I have saved all of them? Would I have given those teachers time to save themselves and the kids?" Read her full interview here. (Read more Uvalde mass shooting stories.)